Sunday, December 28, 2008

Just waiting......on God.

Today we had to start re-painting the house again. That hasn't been fun.

We've re-arranged the furniature according to a staging decorator. Never did I think of doing what they told us to do, but it works and I actually love it.

While painting, Chad and I were talking about ways to draw attention to the house.
* Put signs out on 21st Street. (not sure why this hasn't been done already)
* Do something in the front yard to gain more attention to the house.
* Place the flyers in stores in this area.
* Place an add somewhere other than where the realtor has.

But that got me thinking? WHAT IF we are truly supposed to just be waiting on God. Does that mean we are not supposed to do all we can and then leave the rest up to God?

Are our thoughts appearing that we don't want to wait any longer and that we are trying to take matters into our own hands?

So many little answers.

Wednesday, December 24, 2008

Comes with the territory....

This has been the most unusual week of Christmas for me ever.

I have not worked.
I've been sick.
I don't have to study.
I am caught up on everything.
The house is clean.
The food is prepped.
The cards are out.
The calls are made.
We've looked at lights.
We've wrapped the gifts.

Normally....I am cramming this all into Christmas Eve. But not this year. I was prepared. I have been working on a less stress life...and well....I got it. ;o)
I have none!

But....with Christmas...comes work for Chad. And that leaves me lonely this year. He has worked an insane amount of hours. Now....I just miss him.

Looking forward to Christmas Eve being over so I can spend 24hours with the man I love. Can't ask for a better gift than that this year!

Tuesday, December 23, 2008

Maxed Out?? HUH?

As Christmas comes along each year, one of my favorite things are the cards we get in the mail. I don't just look at who sent it, but I look at he card. Many people put lots of thoughts into the cards they send and what it says on the inside.

Mixed in with today's mail I get a rather unsual letter...2 days before Christmas.

"Dear Student,
We are writing you to let you know you have maxed out on your your college credit hours for financial aid"

Hummmmm I guess that's a Merry Christmas....from TCC! ;o) LOL!!!!

Looks like 2009 is going to be an EXPENSIVE year for me;o)

At least....I laughed.....and then put the letter in Chad's stocking!

Thursday, December 18, 2008

Raindrops on ARRRGGGHHH!!!!! :oI & Mrs. Clause

So I'm having a pretty good day today! Things are going well. Not too shabby! I run by Wal-Mart to pick up a few odds and ends (milk, sugar, Tide, Downy, etc).

All is well and Ian and I get through the checkout line just fine!

I remember I can't put anything in the trunk since he is with me because I have a couple of gifts back there for him. So I start loading everything into the back seat. I go to grab the bottle of TIDE and dropped it and it burst on the ground, on the basket, and my car. Grrrr! I look at Ian, he looks at me and we just say nothing. He quietly walked around the side of the car and got in his seat.
I'm now thinking to myself 'either I go back in and get more....or we don't do laundry'. I proceed to clean up the mess and take the basket to it's proper place in the parking lot when I turn around and Mrs. Clause was standing there with a bottle of TIDE in her hand. (just so happens she was the manager and happned to see my mishap and grabbed another one for me)
I apprecitated that gesture so much that Ian and I started singing "My Favorite Things" on the way home.

When we got home, Ian and I were unloading groceries and well.....I dropped and ENTIRE GALLON OF MILK! And burst! OH MY!
Next thing I hear in the backgroud is Ian singing "Brown paper packages tied up with string, these are a few of my favorite things"

I died laughing right there.

Only me! These things only happen to me!

Wednesday, December 17, 2008

Fresh start for fears....

How easy is it to overcome your fears.

That is something I have been facing recently and I'm really reaching outside the box to conquer some of them.

Starting with heights. I'm not a fan of it. I haven't really ever been.
But I've been doing things to get me ready for the "jump" of my life!

Water, I haven't quite figured this one out yet....but someday....someway....somehow, I will get there.

Cats, I'm doing so much better. Several friends have helped me get use to their cats slowly and I am becoming more trusting everyday. I have a feeling by this time next year, we will probably own a little kitty so I need to get use to it at some point.

There are many that I have conquered. I think it is all in our minds. So my goal is to get the fear out of my mind and conquer more confidence, faith, and trust in the things that frighten me that probably really shouldn't. I'm sure 2009 will be a year of exciting blogs.

Tuesday, December 16, 2008

Second Chances...

I thought to myself recently that this year will be one that I want to wipe from my memory. So many struggles, so much would be easier to just not remember.
But then I thought, NO! This is the year I want to remember what didn't break me, made me stronger. What satan tried to destory in me, strengthened my faith in the Father.
It hasn't been the most difficult time in my life, but has been challanging.
But God gives us challanges, corrections, and praises all at the same time.
I want to know that my Father is rejoicing with me when I know I am doing right. And He gives me that everyday! He makes me stronger here, helps me fight the battles against satan, and guides me in being the best Christan I can be.

I beleive I have failed tremedously this year, and I'm happy to know that I have a God of second chances, and third, and forth, etc. I want to be THAT Christian who gives the same second chances to others who hurt me. I think I am able to do that. I think He has given me the tools to do just that. I hope that those I have hurt can extend the same grace to me and see that we all fall down at some point, but the goal is to get up and keep going.

I see a relationship in my life healing right now. Although it's still difficult, and I am forgiving years and years and years of hurt and pain, it's nice to see that He is eqipping me to do this in all my relationships.

There is nothing....NOTHING....that is so shattering in life that I cannot forgive and move past. If I can forgive someone for abusing me as a child, I can ceratinly forgive words that hurt me. Do I have to put up a wall? Not at all. I still have to, and continue to love them and accept them for who they are. All their faults and all. I can only hope that others can see that in me and at some point, will extend the same grace and love that I am extending to them.

How about giving someone a second chance today. What a great way to end the year. Start fresh, start over, and start new.

Monday, December 15, 2008

Snow Days!

It's always unusual having "Snow Days" and we don't even have snow. We should call them what they are. "Down Right COLD days"

These days are always fun for kids. I remember being a kid and being disappointed when the snow came during winter break and we didn't get any extra time off. That has not been the case the past couple of years. And this year seems to be following the same pattern. Tomorrow will be day #2.

It doesn't stop adults though. I still have my usual Monday errands and appointments to tend to which all went well. Just being in the car was really cold.

I was able to get the house decorated for Christmas. I'm a little sad that we don't have lights up outside this year, but this has been one hectic year and I just got the tree up today! Since I am not climbing on the ladder to the second level of the house, I think we are just going to be happy the the tree and some stockings up this year. I love that you can see the tree from the front room at night. It really brings some life through those windows.

The kids day consited of Halo 3 and Nerf Guns! Thanks to all the lovely friends who bought Lukus the many nerf guns and darts for his birthday! I just can't THANK YOU enough!!! LOL!!! They are having fun with them!

Fortunately, I only had to get out of the house 3 times today. Hopefully only twice tomorrow until this bitter cold passes.

Thursday, December 11, 2008

Everyone Sing along!

You know when you have a good idea and it's too late! I wish I had done this for our college group at church and got all of us to sing it at the Christmas party on Saturday night. What a hoot that would have been!

On the first day of finals, my teachers gave to me:
Reviews of stuff that I've never seen!

On the second day of finals, my teachers gave to me
2 unsharpened pencils

On the third day of finals, my teachers gave to me
3 French Verbs

On the fourth day of finals, my teachers gave to me
A 4.0 NOT!

On the fifth day of finals, my teachers gave to me

On the sixth day of finals, my teachers gave to me
6 Blue Books

On the seventh day of finals, my teachers gave to me
7 cups of Starbucks!!!

On the eighth day of finals, my teachers gave to me
8 O'clock FINALS!

On the ninth day of finals, my teachers gave to me
9 Ibuprofen's

On the tenth day of finals, my teachers gave to me
10 Power Naps!

On the eleventh day of finals, my teachers gave to me
11 Hours of research!

On the twelfth day of finals,
(singing slowly)
it finally got to me...
(dramatic pause)
12 Straight all-nighters
11 Hours of Research!
10 Power Naps!
9 Ibuprofen's
8 O'clock Finals
7 Cups of Starbucks
6 Blue Books
5 EXTRA POINTS!!!!!!!!!!
A 4.0!
3 French Verbs
2 Unsharpened Pencils

And reviews of stuff that I've never seen!!!!!!!!

Tuesday, December 09, 2008

By the seaside....

One of the beloved fish went out to sea today.....

It was NOT the orange one!

Sunday, December 07, 2008

Whew! What a day!

Today has been one busy day! I have been saying to people for weeks "I can't fit one more thing on my calendar for December 7th!" and was I ever right. Someone laughed this morning at church when I said that so they said...."I'll give you a million dollars" and said "Tempting....but NO"

The things I had on my agenda today were far more important, and much more rewarding, than what a million dollars could have bought me.

Today during church we were in full swing with the rehearsal for the Children's Christmas program. Linda is doing such a fantastic job with the kids. I couldn't be more excited for them to get to show off what they have learned over the past few weeks.

We came home in time just to change and go right back out the door to see the
Owasso Community Choir Concert. I couldn't be more proud of our Memorial Drive's Wes Miles and Shane and Alice Coffman for their extraordianry talent with their voices today. If there were any hiccups in the program, we certainly couldn't tell. This group of vocalist showed they are certainly very seasoned in both vocals and stage presence. The entire thing was so much fun. If I had to pick a favorite selection through the entire program, it would be Variationis of Jingle Bells. We laughed and were in awe at the same time as they took off with the song and took it to another level of fun. This certainly was worth me giving up every bit of studying this afternoon to go and have a great time and listen to some beautiful singing.
My hats off to you Shane, Alice and Wes! Way to go!

I had a very nice lunch with Vicki Taylor after the concert. Seems we have spent a lot of the past 48 hours together! And that is okay. What a neat woman she is!! I love her heart and how she is striving to be the person that God has created her to be.

We rushed by my house to pick up Emilie and we were off to 29th & Yale Church of Christ for a great service and then coca coca and carols.

We listened to other groups and sang 5 songs ourselves. Even included 4 of our children in one of them as well as Jason Thornton, Linda Lathrop, Wes Miles, Heather Lonergan, and Shane again. The evening was such a blast and I am just so thankful to be included with such a great group of people. How do you find a word to wrap up a day like today and just tie it with a beautiful bow......I would call it "Happiness".

Here are our children from tonight

Saturday, December 06, 2008

Sleep and Dreams!

I was blessed by my wonderful husband to be able to sleep in until 9:00am this morning. And man...this was the best night rest I have had in a long time. He had gone to bed before me as I just couldn't put the books down. I didn't wake up all night. YAY! I think I was just purely exhausted from all the studying I did yesterday and finally just had to pass out. But alas....more studying today.

For a long time, I have not dreamed anything that I can remember at night other than stuff about school. Until last night. I had the most weird dream....

I dreamed I was driving our VAN to a Michael W Smith concert. I had my friend Casey with me and we were meeting Jennifer there. I had both of their tickets.
We are going across the Arkansas river bridge when I heard a noise. I said "Wonder what that noise was" and I just kept driving. By the time we reached the end of the bridge, the van would go no more, so we pulled it over to the side.

I have concluded to myself (in all my mechanical expertise) that it was the fuel pump, or the alternator. But I was leaning more towards the fuel pump. Don't know why...just was.

So I call Jennifer and let her know what has happened and that we will be late.
I call Chad and he comes to aid in our rescue.
We get in the car so he can take us there and I realize that I have left the tickets in the van.
We turn around to get them and at this point, I am just laughing at myself. Who else could this happen to?
I get the tickets and we are off! The concert had began about 5 minutes before we arrived and we have missed very little.
We get to the door and the ticket taker man says "2 of these are for MWS and one is for the Sandy Patti concert next week"
What?? How can that be?? I bought all of them at the same time!
So, I give the MWS tickets to the girls and I leave with Chad.
so then I have this 1 lonely ticket to see someone else next week by myself, and have no idea how it happened.

We go to get the Van that night, and it appears it has now fallen into the Arkansas River and we have a team of people looking for it.

They find it, and can you believe, there are FISH falling out of the Van doors and windows with all the water rushing out as well.

Needless to say, I'm glad I had a great night sleep, but man....that was the weirdest dream ever! ;o)

Thursday, December 04, 2008

Kids, Christmas, Music....what else?

It's been a fun couple of weeks working with Linda on the Children's Christmas Program. She has found the cutest play! I was very excited when she asked me about helping with the music. I knew I wanted to, but didn't know how it would all work out. But God did it.

Kids are so willing to learn new things so when I threw a song at them they didn't even know (and I didn't know) they ran with it and did an amazing job. I can't say how many times tonight I had goose bumps just by listening to them sing.

Their hearts are just overjoyed with song.

Jason approached me about an idea for the Grandparents banquet. A teen talent show. I had asked him about it a few months ago and he said he would think about it. And boy did he. I love the idea he presented and I am looking forward to seeing it all pan out. I'm even more excited to work with the teens to see what they come up with.

We have so much talent at our church and everyone needs a place to let that shine. I'm excited that God has given me opportunities to work with people who hold the same passion. I can't wait to see how God works through it all.

Wednesday, December 03, 2008

2 Weeks down...a lot more to go!

Today I had another appointment. I feel awkawrd everytime I walk in. It's a very alone kind of feeling. The wind was blowing so hard today and nearly pushed me quickly into the door so that I wouldn't turn around. I never know what to say at first, but I am not allowed to beat around the bush. I had some very good accomplishments, as well as a few set backs. But that is to be expected. The timing of it all isn't that great with finals coming up, but I can do this.

I got a whole host of questions today. It thought after last week, I couldn't possibly have more than what I did. Some are catered to me, some are generalized. Some of them...I think "Why on earth are you making me answer THIS question"

But I trust the process.

I had 7 complete days of 1000 calories and 1 day at 1129 calories with a 3 pound weight loss and only 3 out of the 7 days made me sick.

S U C C E S S!!!!

Day 14.....I am Beautiful

When I look in a mirror, I don't think I am ugly. I don't think I am fat. That is a common misconception of a person with an eating disorder. It's because of who I am that makes me the beautiful person that I am inside.

It's because of who I am that people like me.
The things that I am and the sins that I have, I admit. I don't place blame or fault on others.

I look deep down into my eyes and see more colors than one can even imagine.

One of my favorite qualites about me is my beauty. The beautiful side of me overshadows any failres of mine.

My beauty fades when I am not being my authentic self. My glow is gone. I hope over these past 14 days, someone has been able to see a glimpse of the beauty in me.
But most importantly, I am thankful that I was able to see it.

Tuesday, December 02, 2008

Random Tuesday

Do you ever get in the car and your car alarm goes off? Um...I have the key!
Oh wait....finally figured out, I must have hit the panic button. LOL!

Studying like a crazy woman is paying off. I can not figure out for the life of me how I am going to make it through next week, but where there is a God...there is a way. A final every single day! But I can't WAIT for Thursday!

The question of the month is "How's the house?" The answer is: "It's still here"

Dr's appointment today showed a 3 pound weight loss. Not too bad. I call that success. Back to Laureate tomorrow.

I have found great value in my personal homework this week. The feedback from my dearest friend's has been extremely encouraging. I didn't like the assignment at first, but it gets easier by the day. I have one more to complete today. Looking forward to tomorrow's appointment.

Monday, December 01, 2008

Day 13.....Trustworthy

I am trustworthy!

I think this is something that says a lot about me.

I can truly admit my faults and know that I always have room to grow and improve in every aspect of my life. I think that is pretty much true of everyone. So when it comes to trust, I won't say that I don't ever screw up. But if I do, I certainly admit it.

But if you have ever been on the receiving end of needing my trust, you know that you have gotten it.
Someone once told me "Well, it's okay to tell your husband everything...." and I was in shock! I don't believe so.

If I don't have permission to share something about someone, then I keep it to myself. I do slip on occassion, but I try my hardest to never betray a confidence.

I hope someone has been on the recieiving end of knowing no matter how difficult things get in life, they can trust that I will always be there. I take care of my obligations that I commit to and I ususally commit 100% of whatever it is.

I think of someone that is trustworthy as having good character. They are honest and reliable. I think this is something that makes me feel good about me. This is something I really like about me.

This is a word that at the end of my time here that I would love for others to say about me. But why wait until the end. I'll start now! ;o)