Friday, April 16, 2010

Countdowns....Graduation and KPC

Not sure what to count down to anymore, there is so much going on. It's good to have a busy life!!!

I've been counting down to graduation (21 days) but now my focused has switched.

I'm counting down to the KPC Night of Praise. 5 MORE DAYS!!!!

What a joy this year has been. These kids are amazing to me. They teach me so much about joy and laughter, happiness and sadness, and pride and humility. I think God gave me the ability to teach these kids so that I may learn from them myself.

In my 3 years of doing this, they have helped me grow in ways I didn't see before. It's like that phrase "I once was blind, but now I see...." I doesn't mean this...but so many things that my heart and mind were blind to before, are now so opened. Things that were hurting my heart because of my selfish and prideful ways, I see so differently now.

Kids are smart. They are much smarter than we ever give them credit for. And when I teach 27 of them 4 times a month, I am the one that is really learning God lessons from them. The things they say are truly God statements. The ways they serve each other are beautiful acts of God. The way they care for one another and love each other shows just what God has commanded us to do. These kids have got it right.

I have to admit.....I'm sad. I'm really sad that in 5 days, this will be over again. I could do this all year. I love it that much. What makes me love it even more is the fact that I have a church family that supports this ministry and these kids so much. I have delegated more this year than I ever have and I pray it goes perfectly....and it will! God has placed the right people in place for this.
The kids look forward to this night for 4 1/2 months and they can't wait for their moms and dads to see what they have accomplished. To see how they have learned to worship God. For me.....when I turn my head at church and see them praising God with all they've got......that makes my heart simply smile. I can't even imagine what it does in God's heart. I'm not sure I have ever seen a smile quite that big....and I bet he's got it! :o)

I know one thing for sure, when this is over....I'll be able to just breathe! All of this behind me will be a good thing...but a chapter in my life gone. So what's next?

Stay tuned....and I'll tell ya! :o)

Monday, April 12, 2010

25 days

I know what I know...and it's all I know.

The test are overwhelming.

Changes here and there and everywhere. But what doesn't kill me will make me stronger right?

Today we did our graduation check, got our caps and gowns, and got everything in order. Really, it was kind of fun but for a moment, I felt relief and sadness all at the same time that this chapter of my life is almost over. Time for a new one to begin. I'm excited for that.

Tuesday, April 06, 2010

Whoa!!! 30 days!!!

Okay!!! Here we go!

30 days left! GRADUATION!!!! Wow!

In the next 3 and a half weeks I have to take 8 more huge exams, 13 more class days, 2 more doctor lectures, 6 more clinicals, a surgery rotation in the heart cath lab, a meeting with financial team, academic counselors, and graduation counselors.

Today in the car I wasn't listening to any music. That is odd for me. The moment I get in the car I turn something on and start singing. But today the peacefulness was amazing. When I do that, God sends me songs like "Still" and "Peace be Still" and "Peace, Perfect Peace" and "It is well" and so on. I know those are God moments. I love those moments.

I said today that I'm worried about my spirit over the next few weeks. Philippians 4:6 tells me not to worry and in Matthew 6:25-34 Jesus says that our Father will take care of our needs...and not to worry.
How do I not worry? Well he tells me in 1 Peter to cast my anxieties on him because he cares for me.
And back in Phillipians 4:7 is says He promises to give us the peace that passes all understanding.

“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light” (Matthew 11:28-30).

If you read this....and I'm not sure who does anymore....please pray for the next 30 days that I will freely lay all my burdens down and trust Him to give me the rest I need. Pray that whatever happens, it will be all by His will....not mine. Pray that I have peace and understanding that this is not just a step, but a milestone that is about to be over and a new milestone to begin in my life. Pray for those that I come in contact with. Who knows if I will offend them by my lack of concentration or inability to focus on anything except these exams. Pray that I have the ability to lay down the books and focus on God and worship Him freely without feeling behind or burdened that I need to be doing something else. Pray that God works through me to accomplish all things in life. Pray that I continue to be strong in my faith in Him and that I don't lose site of the journey and the goal. Pray for my husband as he feels so neglected right now. Pray for my kids that they can hold on for 3 more weeks until they get their mamma back! Pray for my physical body as it is taking a beating right now. It need sleep! Pray for the patients I will see and pray that they see God working through me.