Monday, October 01, 2007

Looking Satan in the face....

Today I sit here and deal with an ugly situation in my life. I can cope with it. It's really no big deal. I'm not sad, depressed, upset, and hey..I'm not even crying. (this is a first) However, what frightens me the most is how much of a role I can see Satan playing in this. That's scary for me. Nothing frightens me more than Satan does. The thought of looking him in the face and watching him laugh terrifies me. However, I do it everyday. I see sin around me, beside me and in front of me. How I deal with it is important.

God answers my prayers. He does so every day. I see it, I hear it and it is very evident what he does for me. For that I am so greatful! It seems when God is blessing me beyond belief, Satan is doing everything possible to get me to screw up.

I have only 4 weekends left at work before I can spend time once again with my church family. I believe that Satan is a mad as fire about that. I'm sure he is spitting nails right now. And that's okay. There are going to be aspects of this change that I am sure he is going to try to affect. Most of all, financially. I think he will do his best to try and hit us where it hurts, and we are already bracing ourselves for a rough ride.
This past year has been one that he has had such glory in making miserable for me. I have faced evil, deciet, tempation, lies, gossip, and so much more. Some of them appeared slower and some of them all hit at the same time. I have noticed that the closer we get to the end of October, the worse some of this is getting. The force that he is putting on me is huge. The weight of some things that I am facing are becoming more and more difficult.
Last night I wondered why. And that's when I figured it out. I've made Satan so mad that he's doing everything he can to get me to screw up. And screw up big.

But no. I can't let that happen. I can't allow his power to over step the power that God has given me. I'm strong and I can handle whatever I face.
I feel over the past year I have stared Satan in the face many times.
This is not a game. This is real life stuff. Stuff that could make or break me and through the power of prayer, I can and will overcome.

I called Theresa last week and asked her "Are you not praying hard enough for me?"
I had just about had all I could take. But realized that it wasn't her that needed to be on her knees for was me that needed to spend more time in prayer.

God heard my plea and answered. I faced Satan again yesterday, but with a huge shield of armor of God around me. My eyes are open, they see clearly, and I know that God has never left me, he just needs me to think for myself and not give up. Through all of this, he has made me a much stronger woman than I could have ever imagined.


Shane Coffman said...

"For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms." Eph. 6:12

Although I don't know your specific battles, I am so encouraged to hear how enlightened you are to the spiritual struggle taking place in your life. Those who are aware are more equipped to fight. A spiritual battle requires a spiritual offense and defense. You're right on the money with prayer and your desire for more fellowship with other Christians on Sundays.

Know that I am cheering for you this week!

Theresa said...

"God is our refuge and strength,an ever-present help in trouble. Therefore we will not fear, though the earth give way and the mountains fall into the heart of the sea."

I love you!

Brenda said...

You both are just the greatest friends! Love you guys!!!