Tuesday, November 21, 2006

What does God control?

I have no idea even how to start this blog.

I was having a very nice conversation with someone today about our son. She said to me:

"I don't know what you did to have a child like this"

I was so confused as to what she meant. When I asked her to elaborate she said:

"Well you have to had done something. Kids aren't just like this for no reason"

I explained to her that I believe we were given the kids we have because God trust us enough to take care of them like nobody else could. He knew us before we knew ourselves and that He gave us the family we have so that we would in turn....teach them to glorify Him and raise them up right.

Well....the conversation went south for me at that point. She says:

"I don't believe that. I believe there is a beginning and an end and God is a part of that. Everything else here on earth is done by choice and God has nothing to do with it."

I was dumbfounded!!! I honestly did not know what to say. I was lost. She believes that my children are the way they are because of something that I did here on earth to make them this way.

Wow....I could go on and on with this forever, but in my anger now...I will trust as I know how much my God loves me. I know He doesn't not punish us. I know that I do not have that kind of power to do the things she gave me credit for. I am strong enough to continue loving her and praying that God will open her eyes and pray that she will not pass blame onto me for the disabilities that my child suffers.

God I know you love me and I know you have all the power here on this earth and beyond. I know that you made my children special just for me and God I thank you for them! I thank you for their special needs and I thank you for trusting us to take care of them here on earth. You are the God of all greatness and I see your miracles every day. I pray God that she will see those too and know that YOU are in control of our lives...regardless of what the outcome may be. We know that you have the ultimate power and I pray God that in my conversations with her that you help me control my tongue and give me the correct words to communicate Your love for her as well. Amen

1 comment:

heather said...

I feel for you ... and rejoice in your prayer.
I have a mouthful to say about this too... but most genuinely is the feeling of sorrow at one who chooses to experience this "in-between" part of life alone.
We do have an amazing, wonderful God... who knit us in the wombs and knits life all around us each and every day. He is worthy of praise, all around... and you gave it today. Thank you. I love you!