Wednesday, November 07, 2007

Precious Prayer

Why is one of the most precious things on earth one of the most difficult?

Prayers! It is so hard for me to ask others to pray for me. To put myself out there. To be bold. To be vulnernable. I really struggle with this. If I asked for prayers outloud, are they more inclined to get answered?

I have no problem asking for others, but me personally, I just don't want to bother people with it. I use to be really good at this until someone told me "You always have prayer request" and then I took about 10 steps back in the wrong direction.

I didn't want to appear needy. I wanted people to finally think everything was okay.
I love to pray for people. I love to take their needs to our Father. I love that others would ask me to do that for them.

I've been sick for the past 9 weeks and lost now over 20 pounds. I went to the doctor on Friday and all test came back negative for anything I could have gotten at work. I can not eat and have eaten very little over the past 2 weeks. Eaten practiclly nothing over the past 2 days.

I will soon go in for further testing and procedures to find out why I am rapidly losing weight and getting sick.

If you do read this blog, please pray the answers will soon be found. I was in hopes I had just caught a bug, and now that's not the case. Pray that the outcome and recovery is swift and easy.

And God, I know you read my blog....please Heal Me!!!

3 comments:

Robert said...

Prayin' - now, and for days to come.

Lindsay said...

Brenda,

I don't think you know me, but we go to church together at Memorial. I got connected to your blog through the blogs of other Memorial members.

Anyway, I read this post and thought of a verse in Galatians that I wanted to share with you.

Gal. 6:2 "Carry each other's burdens, and in this way you will fulfill the law of Christ." God gave us the body of Christ for a reason, part of which is to carry each other's burdens. Don't be afraid to ask for prayers. You said how much you love praying for others. Well, others love to pray for you, too. Don't walk through something difficult alone when you don't have to.

You are in my prayers!

Brenda said...

Lindsay,
Thank you for your comments and your prayers. I know it's a selfish act to not ask, but it's a fear I have that I must get over.

Please come find me at church if you are there on Sunday so that we can meet!!!