Sunday, January 10, 2010

Weird..good or bad.

Since I've been back at work I've heard several times "you're just weird"

Now...I know they are saying this in a joking manner, but after about the 20th time I heard it yesterday, it started to rub me the wrong way. Insecurity set in, I started doubting who I was, and I just wondered what would I have to do to be considered "Normal"

Webester defines weird as
1. involving or suggesting the supernatural; unearthly or uncanny: a weird sound; weird lights.
2. fantastic; bizarre: a weird getup.
3. Archaic. concerned with or controlling fate or destiny

I'm not real sure if I fit any of those descriptions and I'm not sure they meant it like that either.

By my co-workers definitions, I'm weird becuase I don't drink, I don't go out to party, I don't cuss, I say poop or poot instead of using other words that I particularly don't want to hear myself. I'm weird because I have a husband that wants to shower me with gifts and I don't like that. I'm weird because I don't want him to take me out to a meal that cost over $100.00. I'm weird because I defend others when they can't defend themselves. I'm weird because I refuse to work on Sunday's and Wednesday's unless there is an emergency. I'm weird because I make random conversations that make others laugh. I'm weird becuause I like to have a converstaion with each of my patients instead of treat'em and street'em and I was told yesterday that I am weird because I actually care about things.

Wow! Okay, that doesn't quite sound like the definition I just read.

I'm constantly an open target for people and most of the time I find that others don't take me seriously. However, my bosses take me very seriously and love having me around.

So, do I change? Well, I think I did that for a point of my life where I changed to please others, and I was miserable. I love being happy and I love my life and I love who I am. Why sit around a table and gossip and talk bad about others? Why use words that aren't pleasing to God and especially to others around me? Why would I want to be anyone different that who God wants me to be?

I don't really have a word to describe myself best but I don't think I would choose weird.


Tammy said...

We are to be IN the world and not OF it. Because of that the world will consider us a bit weird...So be weird and proud of it, my friend!

Brenda said...

Exactly! Thank You Tammy!

I might add that on my review they said I smile, laugh and bring happiness to the department and patients more than any other employee in our area.

Linda L said...

You are a child of God so we're supposed to be weird to those who don't understand it. And as I get to know more about you I understand more of why you feel the way you do about certain things. Like Tammy said be proud of the way God made you. I'm glad you can stand apart from the commonplace crowd and be a good and special way!

Lindsay said...

You know, based on their definition of "weird", I think one of these days they are going to wake up and think, "You know, if that's weird, then I want to be weird, too!" That's just the effect that Jesus in us has on people. So keep being Him.

...and if I had to choose one word to describe you, it wouldn't be "weird". It would be more like "wonderful". ;-)