Wednesday, April 01, 2009

No April Fools Joke!

Wow! Can I start over?

So many things happened today that just leaves me sitting here wondering "Can I wake up and you tell me it's all a joke?"

But you can't. It's so hard at times when life hits us when we are on a good run. Life caught up with me today and I wasn't prepared. But the good news is, God is! I've shed a lot of tears today. Still while I'm typing. But again, it's okay. It's in these tears that causes me to make decisions that I've been avoiding. So in a way, it's all a bit refreshing.

I love my life. I love all I get to do in it. I feel like one of the most blessed people I know. I'm very fortunate to be me. Hardships just come with the territory. I love every time I screw up! It gives me a chance to start over again.

Things could be worse:
My dad is sick......but he's still with us.
My mom has some pain...but it's treatable.
My school is hard..........but I will graduate.
My kids....are kids...........but at least I have them.
My friend has heartache..........but God will heal it.
My life seems overwhelming.........but I'm not alone.
My house hasn't sold...................but at least I have one.
My new job is getting ready to least I have one.
My finances are tight......................but I'm not broke.
I'm am always so tired........................but at least I woke up.

There are so many things I could list. You just have to look at the brighter side. Sure, I'll cry! I'm a girl! It's what we do! But I choose NOT to have a pity party.

So many times in life we become melancholy and choose to respond the wrong way. 2008was a year filled with a self pity party that I worked hard to get out of so I choose not to ever, EVER, let that happen to me again. Even with my bad day today. I'm going to screw up! I'm going to make the wrong choices! I'm going to sin! I'm going to fail! I'm going, I'm going, I'm try my best to be the child that God created me to be and live a life according to His plan....and not my own.

In 2 Corinthians 7:10-11 says "Godly sadness causes us to turn away from our sins and be saved. And we are certainly not sorry about that! But worldly sadness brings death.
Look at what that godly sadness has produced in you. You are working hard to clear yourselves. You are angry and alarmed. You are longing to see me. You are concerned. You are ready to make sure that the right thing is done. In every way you have proved that you are not guilty in that matter."

I love the Bible. It makes you think about so much. And when you're down, it has just the right thing to pick you up. Is there really a need for any other book?

Not sure there is!


Terry Rush said...

You have a good perspective my friend. If it helps...I cry a lot...and I'm not a girl. Things just make me cry.

Hold on. He uses you.

I love you today!

Linda L said...

You've got a lot on your plate right now, and when some of those things get resolved, there will be other things that take their place. But, with God on your side, you can make it through the day...maybe in tears, but you will make it. I believe tears are a very healthy outlet! As one speaking from experience, I cry at Hallmark commercials and when I see complete strangers cry, so...
God uses you in awesome ways to show others what faith looks like! You may have a temporary setback, but you keep going and praising! Love you for that!

Zach's House said...

I hope things get better. I feel your way a lot too. At least you've got good friends like Terry and Linda. You can be authentic which will help you get through everything. I feel I must be fake most of the time. Keep up the good work of being positive in the midst of pain. Jesus is with you every moment. : )

Zach's House said...


I thought you'd like this short film I posted on my blog. I really think it'll have you smiling.