Friday, October 01, 2010

Amazed

I really am amazed at how things work in our life. I'm amazed at how God works.

Looking at my blog today, it was 30 days ago I posted about how proud I was of Ian's accomplishments. It's funny how drastically things can change in a short amount of time.

We've had to make some hard decisions regarding his education, but one thing has not changed....I'm still a proud momma!

Nobody will ever understand him like I do. Nobody will ever see in his eyes what I can see. I love him. I want the best for him. I want the world to see how big his heart really is.

The hard part is when I can't "make" that happen. I can't make someone like someone else. I don't have that kind of power. But what I can do is pray. I can pray for others to have eyes like Jesus to see Ian the way He does. To love him the way that He does. To have a heart like He does.

As a mother, it is so hard to watch your child go through hard times. Regardless if they have a disability or not. But if I know anything about my kids, I know they will be strong and stand firm in their beliefs and they will not torment others because they don't measure up to the worlds expectations. I want them to look at the world through the eyes of our Father and see it for what God intended it to be....instead of what man has made it.

I use to laugh when I heard my parents say the line "This will hurt me more than it will hurt you." Today....that line rang true. But because of my faith in God, I know that the clear answer was to make changes. I felt confident that I made the right decision. I felt peace.

I amazed by my son....and I am amazed by our God.

2 comments:

Tammy said...

Awesome! You ARE a great mom, Brenda, and Ian is a wonderful God-made son. Treating him as Jesus would treat him...how can you go wrong? But remember, Jesus was criticized for the mercy and compassion he had for people. Judgemental people need mercy too. Then ignore what they say. Can't wait to hear about the changes you have made!!!

Terry Rush said...

I really love Ian.

I especially love the light I see in his eyes.

I believe in that boy!

And...I love you today!