Amazed

I really am amazed at how things work in our life. I'm amazed at how God works.

Looking at my blog today, it was 30 days ago I posted about how proud I was of Ian's accomplishments. It's funny how drastically things can change in a short amount of time.

We've had to make some hard decisions regarding his education, but one thing has not changed....I'm still a proud momma!

Nobody will ever understand him like I do. Nobody will ever see in his eyes what I can see. I love him. I want the best for him. I want the world to see how big his heart really is.

The hard part is when I can't "make" that happen. I can't make someone like someone else. I don't have that kind of power. But what I can do is pray. I can pray for others to have eyes like Jesus to see Ian the way He does. To love him the way that He does. To have a heart like He does.

As a mother, it is so hard to watch your child go through hard times. Regardless if they have a disability or not. But if I know anything about my kids, I know they will be strong and stand firm in their beliefs and they will not torment others because they don't measure up to the worlds expectations. I want them to look at the world through the eyes of our Father and see it for what God intended it to be....instead of what man has made it.

I use to laugh when I heard my parents say the line "This will hurt me more than it will hurt you." Today....that line rang true. But because of my faith in God, I know that the clear answer was to make changes. I felt confident that I made the right decision. I felt peace.

I amazed by my son....and I am amazed by our God.