I have found myself working my fingers to the bone. Hitting deadlines, coming in just under the wire and staying up until all hours of the night. As I try to find time of peacful rest, I find myself waking up worried about what I did wrong, what I did right, did I leave anything out, and then I must get up. Average amount of sleep for me these days is 4 hours. I sit in a chair and rarely ever get up. Before I know it, today has turned into tomorrow. It's crazy I tell ya! ;o)
As I was rushing into school early this morning to hit the deadline, I thought to myself, what if we gave this kind of commitment to everything we did? Our family, our jobs, our friends, our lives, our God. Would we tire easily? Would we have enough of it to go around?
I find myself trying to prioritize my life and time and making room for the things that are important to me. Some things, I've had to give up. Some things, I've cut back on. Learning to say yes and learning to say no is something I have started doing well. And I don't feel bad either. It's starting to come naturally.
I think God has shown me just how much I can handle. Now it's up to me to decide what I will do with my time. Using it wisely and using it to His glory is all that matters.
Monday, February 18, 2008
Wednesday, February 13, 2008
Monday, February 11, 2008
Conversations with Emilie
Emilie "Mom....did you HEAR what the TV just said?"
Me: "No...what?"
Emilie: "They said if we come right now, we will get a free car"
Me: "That's not how it works"
Emilie: "That's what they said"
Me: "How many people do you think would go there to get a free car?"
Emilie: "Thousands"
Me: "And do you think they are going to give each person a free car?"
Emilie: "No, but if we hurry and we are first in line, we'll get it"
Me: "I'm sorry honey,they just don't give away free cars"
Emilie: "Ummmmm....then that's not HONESTY!!!!"
Me: "No...what?"
Emilie: "They said if we come right now, we will get a free car"
Me: "That's not how it works"
Emilie: "That's what they said"
Me: "How many people do you think would go there to get a free car?"
Emilie: "Thousands"
Me: "And do you think they are going to give each person a free car?"
Emilie: "No, but if we hurry and we are first in line, we'll get it"
Me: "I'm sorry honey,they just don't give away free cars"
Emilie: "Ummmmm....then that's not HONESTY!!!!"
Sunday, February 10, 2008
Tuesday, February 05, 2008
Praising through the storm....
One group I really love is Casting Crowns. Today, I was listening to the radio...and a song I've heard over and over before came on. I've liked it before, but it really touches my heart right now in a way that is unexplainable.
"Praise You In This Storm"
I was sure by now
God You would have reached down
And wiped our tears away
Stepped in and saved the day
But once again, I say "Amen", and it's still raining
As the thunder rolls
I barely hear Your whisper through the rain
"I'm with you"
And as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise the God who gives
And takes away
And I'll praise You in this storm
And I will lift my hands
For You are who You are
No matter where I am
And every tear I've cried
You hold in Your hand
You never left my side
And though my heart is torn
I will praise You in this storm
I remember when
I stumbled in the wind
You heard my cry to you
And you raised me up again
My strength is almost gone
How can I carry on
If I can't find You
But as the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain
"I'm with you"
And as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise the God who gives
And takes away
I lift my eyes unto the hills
Where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord
The Maker of Heaven and Earth
"Praise You In This Storm"
I was sure by now
God You would have reached down
And wiped our tears away
Stepped in and saved the day
But once again, I say "Amen", and it's still raining
As the thunder rolls
I barely hear Your whisper through the rain
"I'm with you"
And as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise the God who gives
And takes away
And I'll praise You in this storm
And I will lift my hands
For You are who You are
No matter where I am
And every tear I've cried
You hold in Your hand
You never left my side
And though my heart is torn
I will praise You in this storm
I remember when
I stumbled in the wind
You heard my cry to you
And you raised me up again
My strength is almost gone
How can I carry on
If I can't find You
But as the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain
"I'm with you"
And as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise the God who gives
And takes away
I lift my eyes unto the hills
Where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord
The Maker of Heaven and Earth
Monday's
Monday's are rough days. They are long and drawn out. It's easy to get frustrated with life by 5:00 on Monday's but sometimes we just have to roll with the punches and keep going.
I've been sick since Friday, but really, really, sick since Sunday afternoon. Seems that life and illness caught up with me and told me to slow down. It has a funny way of doing that. When you least expect it, it knocks you down.
My mother was the store this weekend with Ian. While they were there, Ian saw one of his teachers from school. Today, I got an e-mail that read "I saw Ian at the store with his Aunt...she looks just like you"
I couldn't wait to pay my mom that compliment. She loved it!
Life has been difficult lately, but I will not give up or give in. I just pick myself up and keep going. It's been an interesting ride. Life...is good.
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Give to every day
There will always be a reason to give up, and there will always be a reason to keep going. The question is, which reason will you choose to focus upon?
Your troubles will get the best of you if you give all your time and attention to them. But you always have another choice.
You can give your attention to the positive possibilities. You can choose to focus upon what's right with life.
There is something you can do in this very moment to create a little bit of positive value in your world. Though it may not seem like much, just one small positive action can have an enormous impact.
Even the smallest step has a clear and unmistakable direction. When you choose to take action, you choose to take control.
Don't allow your life to be defined by the difficulties that come your way. For beyond them all, you have something unique and beautiful to give to every day.
-- Ralph Marston
I've been sick since Friday, but really, really, sick since Sunday afternoon. Seems that life and illness caught up with me and told me to slow down. It has a funny way of doing that. When you least expect it, it knocks you down.
My mother was the store this weekend with Ian. While they were there, Ian saw one of his teachers from school. Today, I got an e-mail that read "I saw Ian at the store with his Aunt...she looks just like you"
I couldn't wait to pay my mom that compliment. She loved it!
Life has been difficult lately, but I will not give up or give in. I just pick myself up and keep going. It's been an interesting ride. Life...is good.
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Give to every day
There will always be a reason to give up, and there will always be a reason to keep going. The question is, which reason will you choose to focus upon?
Your troubles will get the best of you if you give all your time and attention to them. But you always have another choice.
You can give your attention to the positive possibilities. You can choose to focus upon what's right with life.
There is something you can do in this very moment to create a little bit of positive value in your world. Though it may not seem like much, just one small positive action can have an enormous impact.
Even the smallest step has a clear and unmistakable direction. When you choose to take action, you choose to take control.
Don't allow your life to be defined by the difficulties that come your way. For beyond them all, you have something unique and beautiful to give to every day.
-- Ralph Marston
Saturday, February 02, 2008
Installing Love
Tech Support: Yes, how can I help you?
Customer: Well, after much consideration, I've decided to install Love.
Can you guide me through the process?
Tech Support: Yes. I can help you. Are you ready to proceed?
Customer: Well, I'm not very technical, but I think I'm ready. What do I do first?
Tech Support: The first step is to open your Heart. Have you located your Heart?
Customer: Yes, but there are several other programs running now. Is it okay to install Love while they are Running?
Tech Support: What programs are running?
Customer: Let's see, I have Past Hurt, Low Self-Esteem, Grudge and Resentment running right now.
Tech Support: No problem, Love will gradually erase Past Hurt from your current operating system. It may remain in your permanent memory but it will no longer disrupt other programs. Love will eventually override Low Self-Esteem with a module of its own called High Self-Esteem. However, you have to completely turn off Grudge and Resentment. Those programs prevent Love from being properly installed. Can you turn those off?
Customer: I don't know how to turn them off. Can you tell me how?
Tech Support: With pleasure. Go to your start menu and invoke Forgiveness. Do this as many times as necessary until Grudge and Resentment have been completely erased.
Customer: Okay, done! Love has started installing itself. Is that normal?
Tech Support: Yes, but remember that you have only the base program. You need to begin connecting to other Hearts in order to get the upgrades.
Customer: Oops! I have an error message already. It says, "Error - Program not run on external components." What should I do?
Tech Support: Don't worry. It means that the Love program is set up to run on Internal Hearts, but has not yet been run on your Heart. In non-technical terms, it simply means you have to Love yourself before you can Love others.
Customer: So, what should I do?
Tech Support: Pull down Self-Acceptance; then click on the following files: Forgive-Self; Realize Your Worth; and Acknowledge Your Limitations.
Customer: Okay, done.
Tech Support: Now, copy them to the "My Heart" directory. The system will overwrite any conflicting files and begin patching faulty programming Also, you need to delete Verbose Self-Criticism from all directories and empty your Recycle Bin to make sure it is completely gone and never comes back.
Customer: Got it. Hey! My heart is filling up with new files. Smile is playing on my monitor and Peace and Contentment are copying themselves all over My Heart. Is this normal?
Tech Support: Sometimes. For others it takes awhile, but eventually everything gets it at the proper time. So Love is installed and running. One more thing before we hang up. Love is Freeware. Be sure to give it and its various modules to everyone you meet. They will in turn share it with others and return some cool modules back to you.
Customer: Thank you, God.
Customer: Well, after much consideration, I've decided to install Love.
Can you guide me through the process?
Tech Support: Yes. I can help you. Are you ready to proceed?
Customer: Well, I'm not very technical, but I think I'm ready. What do I do first?
Tech Support: The first step is to open your Heart. Have you located your Heart?
Customer: Yes, but there are several other programs running now. Is it okay to install Love while they are Running?
Tech Support: What programs are running?
Customer: Let's see, I have Past Hurt, Low Self-Esteem, Grudge and Resentment running right now.
Tech Support: No problem, Love will gradually erase Past Hurt from your current operating system. It may remain in your permanent memory but it will no longer disrupt other programs. Love will eventually override Low Self-Esteem with a module of its own called High Self-Esteem. However, you have to completely turn off Grudge and Resentment. Those programs prevent Love from being properly installed. Can you turn those off?
Customer: I don't know how to turn them off. Can you tell me how?
Tech Support: With pleasure. Go to your start menu and invoke Forgiveness. Do this as many times as necessary until Grudge and Resentment have been completely erased.
Customer: Okay, done! Love has started installing itself. Is that normal?
Tech Support: Yes, but remember that you have only the base program. You need to begin connecting to other Hearts in order to get the upgrades.
Customer: Oops! I have an error message already. It says, "Error - Program not run on external components." What should I do?
Tech Support: Don't worry. It means that the Love program is set up to run on Internal Hearts, but has not yet been run on your Heart. In non-technical terms, it simply means you have to Love yourself before you can Love others.
Customer: So, what should I do?
Tech Support: Pull down Self-Acceptance; then click on the following files: Forgive-Self; Realize Your Worth; and Acknowledge Your Limitations.
Customer: Okay, done.
Tech Support: Now, copy them to the "My Heart" directory. The system will overwrite any conflicting files and begin patching faulty programming Also, you need to delete Verbose Self-Criticism from all directories and empty your Recycle Bin to make sure it is completely gone and never comes back.
Customer: Got it. Hey! My heart is filling up with new files. Smile is playing on my monitor and Peace and Contentment are copying themselves all over My Heart. Is this normal?
Tech Support: Sometimes. For others it takes awhile, but eventually everything gets it at the proper time. So Love is installed and running. One more thing before we hang up. Love is Freeware. Be sure to give it and its various modules to everyone you meet. They will in turn share it with others and return some cool modules back to you.
Customer: Thank you, God.
Thursday, January 31, 2008
Life and Challanges
Today is January 31st, 2008. I have to admit this has been the most challanging month I have had in a few years. I hurt, I struggle, I cry, I'm depressed, and still...I keep going. I go and act as if it is all okay. Silly me. That's just so silly. This is not the way I would have planned the new year to begin for me. I have a lot of heartache, rejection, fear, pain, emotions, at a time when I should be happy. Certainly this is my Father trying to clue me into something that I cannot see. Life will get better, or it may get worse. What can I do about it?
Today, nothing. My heart hurts way too much. What do I do when it hurts.....I smile and go on.
I am married to the most amazing man ever. He takes care of me no matter what my feelings are. I then hope he feels the same about me. What happens when we are both down? We do our best to take care of one another. After almost 14 years together, we've learned to do that pretty well.
One day....I'll be gone, he'll be gone...we'll all be gone. Would I look back on this month and regret? Probably not. Would I look back on this time and wish it had gone differently? Probably yes.
Today I read the daily motivator. I found it so fitting and so positive. Positive is what I need today and this little thing below said it perfectly.
Life returns the favor
When you encounter resistance, it means you are moving forward. When you come across a challenge, it means you have reached the point where you can successfully meet that challenge.
Life becomes more rewarding as it becomes more demanding. You are destined to achieve, and each successive achievement positions you for an even greater, more challenging achievement.
Each new challenge is an opportunity to stretch beyond your previous limits. Most of the advantages you enjoy today were born in the difficulties through which you traveled in days past.
Every day brings a new way for you to more fully give of yourself. It is by so giving, in ways that are familiar and in ways not yet imagined, that you create the life you most sincerely desire.
In everything there is treasure to be found. The richest treasures are those that ask the most of you, for they resonate wholly with your deepest purpose.
Delight in the living beauty of each challenging effort. Give your best to life and life returns the favor, a million times over.
-- Ralph Marston
Today, nothing. My heart hurts way too much. What do I do when it hurts.....I smile and go on.
I am married to the most amazing man ever. He takes care of me no matter what my feelings are. I then hope he feels the same about me. What happens when we are both down? We do our best to take care of one another. After almost 14 years together, we've learned to do that pretty well.
One day....I'll be gone, he'll be gone...we'll all be gone. Would I look back on this month and regret? Probably not. Would I look back on this time and wish it had gone differently? Probably yes.
Today I read the daily motivator. I found it so fitting and so positive. Positive is what I need today and this little thing below said it perfectly.
Life returns the favor
When you encounter resistance, it means you are moving forward. When you come across a challenge, it means you have reached the point where you can successfully meet that challenge.
Life becomes more rewarding as it becomes more demanding. You are destined to achieve, and each successive achievement positions you for an even greater, more challenging achievement.
Each new challenge is an opportunity to stretch beyond your previous limits. Most of the advantages you enjoy today were born in the difficulties through which you traveled in days past.
Every day brings a new way for you to more fully give of yourself. It is by so giving, in ways that are familiar and in ways not yet imagined, that you create the life you most sincerely desire.
In everything there is treasure to be found. The richest treasures are those that ask the most of you, for they resonate wholly with your deepest purpose.
Delight in the living beauty of each challenging effort. Give your best to life and life returns the favor, a million times over.
-- Ralph Marston
Wednesday, January 30, 2008
Tuesday, January 29, 2008
Negativity
But if you cannot get the habit of observation one way or another, you had better give up the being a nurse for it is not your calling, however kind and anxious you may be. FLORENCE NIGHTINGALE
This was the quote we were given this week to spur us along. Pretty un-motivating huh?
Fortunately, I have a classmate who cared to send this later today!
'I've learned that no matter what happens, or how bad it seems today, life does go on, and it will be better tomorrow.'
'I've learned that you can tell a lot about a person by the way he/she handles these three things: a rainy day, lost luggage, and tangled Christmas tree lights.'
'I've learned that regardless of your relationship with your parents, you'll miss them when they're gone from your life.'
'I've learned that making a 'living' is not the same thing as 'making a life.'
'I've learned that life sometimes gives you a second chance.'
'I've learned that you shouldn't go through life with a
catcher's mitt on both hands; you need to be able to throw some thin
gs back.'
'I've learned that whenever I decide something with an open heart, I usually make the right decision.'
'I've learned that even when I have pains, I don't have to be one.'
'I've learned that every day you should reach out and touch someone. People love a warm hug, or just a friendly pat on the back.'
'I've learned that I still have a lot to learn.'
'I've learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel.'
This was the quote we were given this week to spur us along. Pretty un-motivating huh?
Fortunately, I have a classmate who cared to send this later today!
'I've learned that no matter what happens, or how bad it seems today, life does go on, and it will be better tomorrow.'
'I've learned that you can tell a lot about a person by the way he/she handles these three things: a rainy day, lost luggage, and tangled Christmas tree lights.'
'I've learned that regardless of your relationship with your parents, you'll miss them when they're gone from your life.'
'I've learned that making a 'living' is not the same thing as 'making a life.'
'I've learned that life sometimes gives you a second chance.'
'I've learned that you shouldn't go through life with a
catcher's mitt on both hands; you need to be able to throw some thin
gs back.'
'I've learned that whenever I decide something with an open heart, I usually make the right decision.'
'I've learned that even when I have pains, I don't have to be one.'
'I've learned that every day you should reach out and touch someone. People love a warm hug, or just a friendly pat on the back.'
'I've learned that I still have a lot to learn.'
'I've learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel.'
Sunday, January 27, 2008
Test....and other test.
Tomorrow at 12:15 I will go in and take my first test of level one. I was not enouraged to hear that I may have to go through a "pat down" procedure before entering the exam. I think that's taking it a bit too far.
I don't know how to feel about tomorrow. I don't feel overlly stressed right now. I think it is because I have NO IDEA what these test are like or what is on them. I want to go in and do my best. I'm excited that I'm not anxious right now. I feel so relaxed that it's really scary. I pray tonight and tomorrow that God will help me work through the scenarios for each patient I read about and allow me to make good decisions for their care. I have faith that he will bring me through this.
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This afternoon was a weird one for me. Maybe because of the anticipation of the test tomorrow. My thoughts today haven't seemed really clear and my "inner dummy" just really beat me up. Sure that doesn't make sense to many, but makes great sense to me.
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How does one become truly "selfless"? Can you truly be "selfless" and still want for more? I struggle with this so much. How do I become truly selfless???
I give up so others can have more....
I do less so others can do more....
I don't feel sad about what I miss out on....but have a hard time when selflessness goes un-noticed. So then I say..."That's not true SELFLESSNESS!"
This is where Satan has such a grip on me. More like a choke hold and it catches me off guard.
If I am trusting in my Savior...he knows my intentions. All the other static that goes on in my head....that's cluttered by Satan.
Oh God! Please help me in my walk to stive to be more like you. To be more like you made me to be. To be selfless and not care how others feel. To not worry about going un-noticed. So many times, you were mocked, you were scorned, you were ignored, and you remained selfless. God please help me to be more of the image that you created me to be!
I don't know how to feel about tomorrow. I don't feel overlly stressed right now. I think it is because I have NO IDEA what these test are like or what is on them. I want to go in and do my best. I'm excited that I'm not anxious right now. I feel so relaxed that it's really scary. I pray tonight and tomorrow that God will help me work through the scenarios for each patient I read about and allow me to make good decisions for their care. I have faith that he will bring me through this.
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This afternoon was a weird one for me. Maybe because of the anticipation of the test tomorrow. My thoughts today haven't seemed really clear and my "inner dummy" just really beat me up. Sure that doesn't make sense to many, but makes great sense to me.
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How does one become truly "selfless"? Can you truly be "selfless" and still want for more? I struggle with this so much. How do I become truly selfless???
I give up so others can have more....
I do less so others can do more....
I don't feel sad about what I miss out on....but have a hard time when selflessness goes un-noticed. So then I say..."That's not true SELFLESSNESS!"
This is where Satan has such a grip on me. More like a choke hold and it catches me off guard.
If I am trusting in my Savior...he knows my intentions. All the other static that goes on in my head....that's cluttered by Satan.
Oh God! Please help me in my walk to stive to be more like you. To be more like you made me to be. To be selfless and not care how others feel. To not worry about going un-noticed. So many times, you were mocked, you were scorned, you were ignored, and you remained selfless. God please help me to be more of the image that you created me to be!
Friday, January 25, 2008
Tags and Links!
Okay...here's the deal with this! I got tagged (Thank you Vanessa)...but I have no idea how to put a link in my blog. So I will have to break the rules until I am educated on how to do this! (PS...somebody on here knows my password and I am sure by the time they read this...they will edit it enough to put the links in! ;o) --Okay! Okay! I get the hint! I fixed it for you! -T--
The Rules: Link to the person that tagged you and post the rules on your blog.
Share 5 random and/or weird facts about yourself on your blog, OR
Share the 5 top places on your “want to see or want to see again” list, OR
Share 5 things you never pictured being in your future when you were 25 years old.
Tag a minimum of 5, maximum of 10 random people at the end of your post and include links to their blogs. Let each person know that they have been tagged by leaving a comment on their blog. The tagees have a choice of which they want to do.
As far as weird and random facts go, ya'll know all that stuff about me. Um...the 25 thing...yeah...Everything I'm doing is what I saw myself doing. So lets go with places.
#1. I would love to go out of the country. I have never been out of the United States.
#2. I would love to have a "do over" trip to California with my parents. Would really love to do anything with them again.
#3. I would like to go to Florida. No special reason. Just would like to see that side of the US.
#4. I would love to go to NY and see the Phantom of the Opera.
#5. I would love to go to Jersulem.
So....to tag 5 people.
Okay....Chad...because he doesn't blog and it's time to get something up there.
Chris...because I just need to know more random facts about you! hee hee
Robert...he travels everywhere!!!
And that's all I've got!
The Rules: Link to the person that tagged you and post the rules on your blog.
Share 5 random and/or weird facts about yourself on your blog, OR
Share the 5 top places on your “want to see or want to see again” list, OR
Share 5 things you never pictured being in your future when you were 25 years old.
Tag a minimum of 5, maximum of 10 random people at the end of your post and include links to their blogs. Let each person know that they have been tagged by leaving a comment on their blog. The tagees have a choice of which they want to do.
As far as weird and random facts go, ya'll know all that stuff about me. Um...the 25 thing...yeah...Everything I'm doing is what I saw myself doing. So lets go with places.
#1. I would love to go out of the country. I have never been out of the United States.
#2. I would love to have a "do over" trip to California with my parents. Would really love to do anything with them again.
#3. I would like to go to Florida. No special reason. Just would like to see that side of the US.
#4. I would love to go to NY and see the Phantom of the Opera.
#5. I would love to go to Jersulem.
So....to tag 5 people.
Okay....Chad...because he doesn't blog and it's time to get something up there.
Chris...because I just need to know more random facts about you! hee hee
Robert...he travels everywhere!!!
And that's all I've got!
Friday, January 18, 2008
Thursday, January 17, 2008
2nd Week
The second week of Level One NS proved to be more challenging than I anticipated. All the stressors and worries of everything in life fell upon me this week. But I have survived.
Today when I went to the dentist, he accidentally hit a blood vessel in my face and made for an interesting afternoon for me. When looking in the mirror and trying to smile, I look more like Popeye that got in a bar fight.
(disclaimer: I've never been in a bar fight, BUT I'm sure this is how it feels)
I have discovered once again that Lortab is my friend!
We went shopping for wedding rings today. No...not getting married again, but since mine is falling apart after 13 years, I guess it's time to move on. I discovered that my taste has changed over the years. I have become more "simple" than I use to be. What Chad liked, I found very busy. I think he may have thought what I picked what boring. At least he doesn't think that about me!!!! ;o)
So I'm off to bed. Me and my drugs and my big face!!! Hopefully the swelling will be down by tomorrow.
Today when I went to the dentist, he accidentally hit a blood vessel in my face and made for an interesting afternoon for me. When looking in the mirror and trying to smile, I look more like Popeye that got in a bar fight.
(disclaimer: I've never been in a bar fight, BUT I'm sure this is how it feels)
I have discovered once again that Lortab is my friend!
We went shopping for wedding rings today. No...not getting married again, but since mine is falling apart after 13 years, I guess it's time to move on. I discovered that my taste has changed over the years. I have become more "simple" than I use to be. What Chad liked, I found very busy. I think he may have thought what I picked what boring. At least he doesn't think that about me!!!! ;o)
So I'm off to bed. Me and my drugs and my big face!!! Hopefully the swelling will be down by tomorrow.
Monday, January 14, 2008
AAAARRRGGGHHHH!!!!!
Today was S T R E S S F U L!!!
At one point today I took my blood pressure to see how stressed and angry I was and it was HIGH!!!
My normal speaking voice has hit an unsusal soprano octive and I talk really fast!
At one point, I was shaking today!!!
It's nerves!
It's anxiety!
It's anger!
It's tiredness!
It's everything wrapped up all into one!
CALGON!!!! TAKE ME AWAY!!!!!
Friday, January 11, 2008
Broken.....but now down!
My laptop BROKE!!!
My upstairs toilet BROKE!!!
The pipes to the washing machine...yes....BROKE!!!
The water main in the front yard..you guessed...BROKE!!!
Our cable TV....it's broke!!!
The blinker in my car...yesterday...BROKE!!!
4 of the prongs on my wedding ring....seriously...BROKE!
My bank account...now very broke!!!
So what's the deal?
School started Monday and everything started falling apart. Was that supposed to happen? I don't think so. Everything in my life is supposed to run just super smooth!!! Ha! If you think that's the case, you don't know me very well. (just remember the night I was born, and my wedding day)
This kind of stuff keeps me on my toes. Keeps me awake, keeps me alive. I don't have anything to complain about. At least I have all that stuff to break!
Could I live without it??? Sure! (maybe not he toilet)
When life gives you lemons you make lemonade.
When life gives you apples, you make apple pie.
When life gives you brokenness....you remember who you really are and what is necessary in your life.
My upstairs toilet BROKE!!!
The pipes to the washing machine...yes....BROKE!!!
The water main in the front yard..you guessed...BROKE!!!
Our cable TV....it's broke!!!
The blinker in my car...yesterday...BROKE!!!
4 of the prongs on my wedding ring....seriously...BROKE!
My bank account...now very broke!!!
So what's the deal?
School started Monday and everything started falling apart. Was that supposed to happen? I don't think so. Everything in my life is supposed to run just super smooth!!! Ha! If you think that's the case, you don't know me very well. (just remember the night I was born, and my wedding day)
This kind of stuff keeps me on my toes. Keeps me awake, keeps me alive. I don't have anything to complain about. At least I have all that stuff to break!
Could I live without it??? Sure! (maybe not he toilet)
When life gives you lemons you make lemonade.
When life gives you apples, you make apple pie.
When life gives you brokenness....you remember who you really are and what is necessary in your life.
Tuesday, January 08, 2008
In the dark ages!!!
I am sure I am living now in the dark ages.
I write here today from school. It's a bit frustrating to me that I got a new laptop about 4 months ago and it is in the shop. Don't know how long it will take to fix, what's wrong with it, or what. It's been a bit inconvenient having to go to school everytime I want to do something.
Then last night, AT&T Wireless service was down from about 4:00 to somewhere around 9:00. Now...I had no computer, no phone, and no technology.
I was forced to do the only thing I should have been doing in the first place.
READING!!!
First two days of classes have gone very well. Monday was all Theory from 8:00am until 5:00. I think next Monday I will bring a pillow to sit on. Today was all lab and I'm already done. It was a little exciting and interesting...but not dull at all. Tomorrow is clinical day. That's always exciting to me. I like the hands on work.
I have more reading than I could ever imagine right now. The questions in Nursing School are unlike any other questions from anything I have ever done. You may know the knowledge, but you have to know how to apply it in any situation. All questions are multiple choice, but EVERY answer is correct. You have to pick the best one. It forces you to stay on your feet and think on your toes and think quick.
I did pretty well Monday in answering the questions so we'll see how the rest of the semester goes.
I have a suitcase for a backpack now (and yes, it's red) and even with that, I cannot fit all my books in it.
This is a different life for me now. This is where the rubber meets the road. And we started off running.
Wish me luck!! ;o)
I write here today from school. It's a bit frustrating to me that I got a new laptop about 4 months ago and it is in the shop. Don't know how long it will take to fix, what's wrong with it, or what. It's been a bit inconvenient having to go to school everytime I want to do something.
Then last night, AT&T Wireless service was down from about 4:00 to somewhere around 9:00. Now...I had no computer, no phone, and no technology.
I was forced to do the only thing I should have been doing in the first place.
READING!!!
First two days of classes have gone very well. Monday was all Theory from 8:00am until 5:00. I think next Monday I will bring a pillow to sit on. Today was all lab and I'm already done. It was a little exciting and interesting...but not dull at all. Tomorrow is clinical day. That's always exciting to me. I like the hands on work.
I have more reading than I could ever imagine right now. The questions in Nursing School are unlike any other questions from anything I have ever done. You may know the knowledge, but you have to know how to apply it in any situation. All questions are multiple choice, but EVERY answer is correct. You have to pick the best one. It forces you to stay on your feet and think on your toes and think quick.
I did pretty well Monday in answering the questions so we'll see how the rest of the semester goes.
I have a suitcase for a backpack now (and yes, it's red) and even with that, I cannot fit all my books in it.
This is a different life for me now. This is where the rubber meets the road. And we started off running.
Wish me luck!! ;o)
Sunday, January 06, 2008
School: Tomorrow I embark on a new journey of my education. I've heard this semester called many things. None that I'm willing to repeat as I want to keep my blog at a "G" rating. I thought I would be more nervous than I really am. Maybe that will hit tomorrow morning. Class hasn't even started yet and I already have an assignemnt to read 3 chapters and have all the questions answered before we walk into class. Wow...no pressure huh? I am learing to finally sacrifice certain things in my life. It hasn't been as difficult as I thought it would be, but then again, it really hasn't started yet. I'm sure my absence from certin things that I love will begin to have an affect on me at some point in time. Right now, I'm okay. I get to take singing lessons for another semester. That's really exciting to me. However, I've come to the conclusion that I am not a soloist. No matter how hard I try, I will never become what I dream to be in that area. So I have become content enjoying observinig others. I wish I could have enrolled in our show choir at school but the rehersals conflicted with my nursing courses. Maybe someday I can do that as it sounds like so much fun. Family: Chad's mom and sister are leaving tomorrow. I think they have had a nice visit. Chad and I were introduced to Thai food while they were here. It's always fun to have new experiences with the the people you love. Chad's sister loves to try new places and things so we went along and enjoyed our evening together. Thanks to Theresa for the great reccommendation of Lanna Thai. It was FABULOUS!!!! Spicy...but great!!!! Here are some pictures of us duing the week. 
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